January 2011
Moving on. Growing.
it’s not getting easier. the more time that passes, the harder it gets. i want you. i feel like i will for a while, but i will not for one second let myself give in. i don’t think you’d want me back, but if that time comes, i can’t give in to you. this is why i have to be myself. be independent. i can’t live off of you. it’s unhealthy, and atleast i realize...
December 2010
calesolyn asked: Thank you, really. I hope this next year is really good to you Jess, this year I've seen you go throw great times and terrible times. All I can say is I hope 2011 if full of great times you can write about and put on tumblr so I can hear about them
calesolyn asked: Thank you, really. I hope this next year is really good to you Jess, this year I've seen you go throw great times and terrible times. All I can say is I hope 2011 if full of great times you can write about and put on tumblr so I can hear about them
Anonymous asked: Why did you and your boyfriend break up?
Anonymous asked: Why did you and your boyfriend break up?
So, what Santa brought me (:
-A CAMERAAAA(: it’s what i’ve wanted for years, since my last one decided to flake out on me. it’s a Canon Powershot SX30IS. look it up NOW. beautiful thing (: i’m so happyyy! -a Vera Bradley wallet, that was originally my moms from a few weeks ago, and when she saw how much i loved it, she wrapped it for me. i unwrapped it, and was really upset she had decided to do that,...
I'm kind of glad,
that my long long post didn’t publish last night. i probably just needed to type it to get it out of my system, but it was probably unnecessary as well. i’d just like you to know that even though this week was hard, today was absolutely incredible. i have the BEST family and friends. i love all of you. and thank you god for building me with enough strength to knock down mountains with...
never-going-down-never-giving-up asked: Hey Jessica I know we aren't the best of friends or anything like that. But i just want you to know that if you EVER need anyone to talk to you can always text or email me, I think you have both. I am sorry for whatever is going on, but you are strong, so whatever happens you will make it. Just stay strong, but i hope y'all work things out. But sometimes it's nice to have someone to...
fuck the blogs, I'm gonna tell you my story.:... →
babykaitlyn:
I feel like being braggy because I’m so “temporarily happy due to material things”! LOL JK these things are awesome and I’ll love them forever.
First of all:
+ the pajamas i’m wearing right now
fisheye camera to replace my broken one
mini yellow slug bug car haha
fuzzy dice for my car
i want ze free barbie makeuppp (:
MERRY CHRISTMASSSS
i got an amazing freaking camera. it’s not an SLR but i don’t care. it’s the one i’ve wanted, and it’s incredibleee<3 i also got so much other stuff that i had absolutely no idea about.
time to start over, and rock this new year. happy birthday jesus. i love youuuuu.
i just typed the longest, LONGEST, post ever. but fucking tumblr is retarded… i’m more pissed off at this website than anything.
basically… me and ryan aren’t together anymore, but i promise i’m okay. please don’t give me sad talk because i feel better than that. i’m going to be strong, and an independent person. living for myself, lalala.
so much for...
never-going-down-never-giving-up asked: Hey Jessica I know we aren't the best of friends or anything like that. But i just want you to know that if you EVER need anyone to talk to you can always text or email me, I think you have both. I am sorry for whatever is going on, but you are strong, so whatever happens you will make it. Just stay strong, but i hope y'all work things out. But sometimes it's nice to have someone to...
Through the tough times and the?
i don’t know what to call this christmas season. i don’t know what to call this year, or the past 17 months. but it’s all seeming to go down the drain, and i’m doing my best to keep my head up. i love you, so much, but tonight when we talk, i pray whatever we talk about is a calm conversation, and you absolutely know that i love you. gods with me, and he’s going to...
Lunar Eclipse?
i saw it around 1:30 when it was supposed to be fully eclipsed? it wasn’t, but it was still very pretty. i went out now, forty minutes later and it’s suddenly cloudy. i still saw it, but not well enough at all. i’m happy i can atleast appreciate the stars at night, let alone a lunar eclipse.
space is so beautiful.
Going to write.
to my brother. because i cried far too much after that dang phone call. i miss him way too much. so i’m going to write him a really goofy letter. i’m going to doodle all over it like i normally do. talk ghetto talk. and he’s going to love it and laugh a lot (:
i love you mikemike<3
Major change of plans.
today ryan was too tired to go to dallas… surprise? no. it made me mad, really, but it’s whatever. i got way too excited to go, but atleast he’s promised we can go wednesday. we still had fun spending time together, we got starbucks, my mom took me to get my nails done (AND THEY LOOK AMAZINGGG), and then we picked up ryan and all three of us went to the dollar movies to see Red....
Mockingbird!
YESSSS. today is going to be great. i love dallas, and i love ryan, and i love how much fun we’re going to have.
he’s in the best, sweetest, goofiest mood today. HAPPY(:
tomorrow apparently me and ryan are going to the movies and mockingbird. i highly doubt all of that will happen, but just the fact that we’re going to get out and go do something is exciting to me. i miss going on dates and such. i love that boy. i’m excited to spend all day with him tomorrow!
what’s everyone else’s plans for tomorrow and the rest of christmas break?
My brother
i just talked to him, and i can’t explain how much i miss him. it’s really hitting me. i don’t know if it’s because christmas is here, if it’s because i’m tired, or what. but god, i just can’t stand him not being here. he’s the greatest person in my life, and he’s so far away.
i hope you have the best christmas, michael. i miss you and love...
I Die Young.
my brother showed me this song (he has great taste in music), and i’ve only recently carefully listened to the lyrics. it’s a beautiful song, and gives me some crazy goosebumps. give it a try?
The Band Perry If I die young, bury me in satin Lay me down on a, bed of roses Sink me in the river, at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song Uh oh, uh oh Lord make me a rainbow,...
A very late breakfast!
i’m going to go make some eggs, and toast or something to go with it. i have to eat somewhat healthy now because when i go to my aunts later, there will be allllll sorts of really bad but really good food, ahah.
i feel like today is an early christmas. i love spending time with my family. i can’t wait one bit. i really hope ryan gets out of wrestling soon so he can go! :( mehhh....
rambling.: i've only gotten three people... →
lafillequirit:
still on the list: step-dad, brother, grandparents, maybe aunt/cousins, tanner, and friends.
what’s KINDA cool is that two of the main friends i would get presents for also have birthdays this upcoming week, so i’ll get some money from my mom to get them something cooler (:
there isn’t a single…
I LOVE YOU (: we’re going to hangout VERY soon. i’m free...
Mrs. Claus, much?
goodness i just wrapped so much.
I CAN’T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS<333333 …i’m not that happy… (;
Tonight consisted of:
-going christmas shopping with my mom, and actually getting a really cute cardigan and slippers out of it (completely unexpected, but my mom was in a good mood? aha) -saw mason, kevin and tyler at the mall. helped kevin get some stuff for his sister, which was fun for the few minutes that i was with them. -finished shopping, and i’m really excited about what i got my best friend (: i miss...
I PASSED PHYSICSSSS!
i’m happy i passed all my other exams/classes as well, but OH MY GOODNESS i passed physics!!!!! i was so SO so scared about that exam. so scared! AND I PASSED<3
thank god. thank god sooooo much!
Exams.
89 on english, and 90 on US history. not bad at all. i thought i’d get higher on english, but it’s okay. it still gives me a good average.
now i’m just waiting, and not happily waiting, on my physics grade to come up. god, it’s going to be completely awful. :/
How do you not think?
how can anyone be capable of clearing their mind, and just NOT thinking?! of taking a break. of having a relaxed mind. all the time. how does anyone do it?
i need help not thinking so bad. it kills me. it stresses me and tears me down to the ground. all the time.
: Look Lovely for Valentine's Day Challenge! →
journeyto105:
(I’m posting this now in December, so by the time January rolls around, we’ll have tons of participants!)
Whether you are in a relationship or not, I’m sure we’d all like to look our best by Valentine’s Day this year. That’s why this challenge is a 6 week course to looking your best for the…
Anonymous asked: Why have a tumblr if you're just going to unfollw people and not pay attention to posts? You don't have to "like" every post. Tumblr's to see what's on other people's mind and what they're interested in. It almost seems like you're close-minded if you unfollow those who's posts you don't like just because they don't interest you (although...
Anonymous asked: Why have a tumblr if you're just going to unfollw people and not pay attention to posts? You don't have to "like" every post. Tumblr's to see what's on other people's mind and what they're interested in. It almost seems like you're close-minded if you unfollow those who's posts you don't like just because they don't interest you (although...
I Edited Who I Follow (:
i feel a lot better now. i feel like i hardly paid attention to half of the stuff on my dash. now i have some more time for the people i do follow. be prepared to get more likes and such!
oh, and please don’t take it personally if i unfollow you. i’ve never unfollowed a person because i don’t like them. liking what you post and liking you are two completely different things. i...
Christmas:
i want a bonsai tree. i know urban outfitters sells little kits, but i just doubt they’re able to sustain any potential for life.
i really want a bonsai tree. and i can decorate it as the seasons/holidays come and go. goodness, i really want one!
i really, really miss ryan. and i think that’s all i need to say to sum up my day. i really hope i get to spend the day with him tomorrow. <3
daisykins:
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awkward picture <3
BAD PICTURE TIME (:
whatever.
I love you <3
Seven months on Wednesday. Longest real relationship ever.
tell zachary to get a new freaking jacket. he’s had that forever. serrrrously.
never-going-down-never-giving-up asked: This is random, but how far away do you live from Ryan?
Haha (:
i feel like me and ryan are playing house, or married, or something goofy like that. i’m over here at my desk doing homework (and tumbling), and he’s on my bed doing his homework. we’re so concentrated it’s not even funny (except this minor incident of tumbling). he’s drawing beowolf and it’s so funny looking.
i’m having fun (:
ryan’s coming over and we’re going to do anatomy homework/study because he’s a silly goose who falls asleep in class and misses notes. and he’s being really sweet.
the way he said i miss you?! d’awhhh<3 i melt.
Good night.
and it was a good day, as well.
TMI Tuesday, Everyone!
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I'm Happy (:
today was a really good day. i’ve still been really sleepy, but my headaches didn’t get to me as badly and now i have to go back to school for orchestra, hah. i’m going to eat real quick, then leave.
so yall have some good tumblin’ time!