Oh, you guys.
i’m such a mess. can i be any more repetitive, lately? it’s such a good refreshing mess, and i like it, but i just afjkdlsaf!!! life can’t be simple, and i’m trying to enjoy the rush of it all. the suspense. the killing feeling inside of me. the what ifs. the hows and whys. the what nows?! it’ll all be good soon. i’m good, but i mean life will just fall slowly...
I just went on a liking spree.
i apologize. (:
This guy at school was walking around with a split...
iamgeoffreydavid: loveismeow: OMG it made me cringe. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ZAK zak is so dumb. this is most definitely why gauges are awful.
laurdonspeaks: i can’t stand myself anymore. fuck everything. fuck everyone. thanks for everyone giving up on me. what’s ironic about this, lauren is that i’ve never once given up on you. i’ve always fucking been here for you and i feel like you can’t appreciate that at all. i’ve always tried to reply to your posts when you’re upset, and you hardly ever...
Talk about an incredible weekend.
thank you to everyone who contributed to make it that incredible. i love you all, so so so much. it’s bed time now. enjoy the rain, loves.
You know what feels so good?
completely telling him off. telling him how i feel about it all, and to know i’m never ever running back to that again. and knowing that he knows how i feel, and he knows that i won’t ever go back. it’s great. i’m independent now, finally. i’m out having fun, i’m always with either family or friends, and i really feel happy. i’m in such a great mood. be...
I feel like such a child.
i haven’t crushed this hard since… well, a long time ago.
because i’m so tired, sunburnt, and cold, i think it’s about time i lay down and relax. i’m going to write, because i got some really nice inspiration on the way home tonight. hopefully it turns out well and i actually like it. if i do, i’ll post it. or maybe not. we’ll see what happens. i hope everyone’s been having a splendid weekend. goodnight loves.
that is how i feel right now. just a big ball of mess. but i think i like it. what?
By the way, you guys.
today i had the special olympian basketball tournament, and can i just say that i had a phenomenal time? they lost both games, but it was still a really fun time. they all had fun, and played really well. they are the light of my life (: it was supposed to be volunteering, but i don’t ever feel like i’m volunteering for something when i’m involved with them. it’s just a fun...
I was going to...
sit here, drink coffee, and burn cd’s with all of my new blank cd’s. but richie just asked me to hangout, and you know what the best thing in the world is? hanging out with that kid. i’d like to inform you all that i’m going on an adventure tonight. heck yes.
I might roll down this hill again, here in a few...
the knots in my stomach are coming back. jesus christ, stevie. why you? why on earth, was it you?! i’m asking all the wrong questions right now. thinking all of the wrong things. i don’t even know why. why on earth is this killing me? i can’t stand it. i can’t realize it’s real. because it’s not. you’re here. you always have to be.
Wanna know sumfin?
richie and i are going to make a bucketlist. i’m completely jacking this idea from christina, and i apologize, but you must admit that it was too good of an idea to only be owned by you. (; but basically, what christina and tanner did, is that they made a book with completely empty pages, decorated it all cute like, and on each page wrote down something they’ve always wanted to do/want...
I’m afraid that if you look at a thing long enough, it loses all of its meaning.– Andy Warhol (via girlwithoutwings)
My emotions are running quite wild.
i tried to type it all out and explain, but sometimes a keyboard just isn’t enough.
Going to work out, but first:
can y’all do me a favor, please? text, call, facebook, write a letter, anything, to anyone. to someone, and make them smile. compliment them. tell them they’re a great friend. hug the first person you see. if you’re in public, give someone a nice smile and say hello. that’s all. just bring a tiny bit of happiness into someone’s life this evening. please?
Well, look at you guys today.
moody, are we? tumblr can be a place that makes you so happy, but sometimes it makes you want to crawl in a corner and cry like a baby. i don’t know what’s up with my dash today, but on every page, at least one thing made me want to flash forward to a better feeling. nothing’s wrong with today, it’s really nice in fact, but this mood is not meant to be here. this lonely,...
sometimes I really need you
lafillequirit: to bundle me up in your arms and let me cry like a child. to hold me and not need to understand why i am upset with you and like let the fear drain from my body. because you scare me, every so often. and i cry, quite often. and i need that to be okay, all of the time. so thank you for curling me up into a ball on your lap in the middle of a park with children running around...
REBLOG if you want your followers to anonymously...
oh come on, come on, i’ll do it if you do it (;
ventisette: Don’t be with someone just because you’re lonely. Don’t be with someone because they are there and convenient. Don’t be with someone because you’re bored, or you think it might be kind of cool. Don’t be with someone because you feel like you have to. Don’t be with someone so that people don’t think you’re socially inept. Don’t be with someone because other people say that he or she...
You know what's silly?
besides the fact that this week is supposed to be pretty eventful with my friends, i’m far too excited about p.e. tomorrow. i miss those kids so much on the weekends. they just melt my heart, i swear. i can’t wait to see them. it’s such a fantastic class. <3333
I'm missing Stevie today.
i think i’m going to do something out of the norm for him today. just something really wacky and awesome that he’d love. by the way, stevie, you’re still in my dreams. i don’t know what it means, but you’re there. sometimes it’s nice, but i don’t like crying in my sleep when it’s not. i miss you. we all do. like i said before a million times…...
i could nitpick at my new hair, but i’m not gonna fret it. because in general, i actually like it. i’ve missed having some hair over my forehead. (:
nostalgia, eff you.
You know what drives me mad?
i just had to go really far back in my archive to find some lyrics i wrote, because my friend wanted to see them. so i end up clicking on this crap i wrote for ryan and i’s anniversaries and crap, and shit. man. why on earth did i do that to myself? a whole year and a half, practically wasted. i mean, yeah, i guess i was happy, but really? was it worth it? no. he’s already out making...
My ear hurts!
i mean, seriously, body, why can’t you just get along with me, and finally not be in pain somewhere? that’d be awful nice of you. on the upside of strange body aches and what not, i get to chill with zach and jake tonight. you know what makes me so happy? is that lately i’ve really missed my old guy friends. i’ve never been one of the girls, ever. forever and for always,...
Shock me like an electric eel.
musicthief: itskimtranmotherfuckers: just...
What a stunning night.
richie and i went to a really massive park and walked around all over it, running into all sorts of adventures. i did a very good job of keeping his mind off of things, but most definitely let him talk about them when he needed to. we shared a lot of laughs, deep conversations, and of course the silly ones. we took so many photos, and made a lot of memories. we watched the moon rise high into the...
Time to go be a best friend.
richie’s grandma passed away this evening. so we’re going to go write some music, and cause a riot of smiles. i feel so sorry for him. i just lost my granny, and i can feel everything he’s feeling. tell all the people you love, that you love them often. so, so often that they’ll get sick of hearing it. you never, ever know when you’re going to lose them. you...
I absolutely love singing Imogen Heap because it makes me feel like my voice is absolutely stunning. The fact that I can hit some of those notes? I mean, jesus. That’s just incredible to me. Although it’s all an illusion. My voice is nothing compared to hers. Ah, she’s an inspiration for sure. Such a goddess.